The past couple of weeks I have been riding the struggle bus, I just can’t seem to find the drive to stay on top of all my tasks, including my blog. I apologize for my absents.
Bald Man says that maybe my meds need to be adjusted, but I don’t think that’s it. I think it is nothing more than a bad case of winter blues. Don’t get me wrong I like winter… for about a month. One good snow storm and I’m ready for spring. I hate being inside for long periods of time and having to take the car everywhere.
I love walking places, and Miss Determination and Mr. Fearless love riding their bikes and playing at the playground. Which means they are also suffering from some serious cabin fever. It’s not that we don’t get out of the house, but they are getting tired of the library. I’m getting tired of the library.
So, between cabin fever and winter blues, I just don’t want to do the stuff I know I have to do. Don’t get me wrong I still make sure my house is decently clean, but I’m so tired of looking at all my walls, and the walls at the library.
I have said “I’m bored” more times in the past week than I care to admit. Bald Man keeps telling me I’m not bored I’m depressed. but I’m not depressed I’m just bored out of my mind. I’m tired of crafting and doing all the indoor stuff that I have been doing for months. I have run out of stuff to binge watch, I’m watching 7th Heaven for the 3rd time at least. Don’t get me wrong I love that show, but at this point winter, it isn’t really what I want to do.
I’m hoping now that the days are getting longer, and the sun is actually starting to reappear. I will be able to get off the struggle bus and find my motivation again. Plus I’m going to go back to swimming because while I have tried running the past couple years it just isn’t giving me the high that I want.
Stay tuned for my post about the reality of mother vs how I imagined motherhood and my post on my horrible case of baby fever.